not much to say

I haven't had much to write about lately - or rather, I just haven't felt like writing. It's been a tumultuous couple of months.

Last week was horrible. Central had to off about 15 people. It's hard in any environment when people are let go strictly because of finances, but in our work, this is family. It's brutal. My heart hurt for leadership that had to make the decisions. I watched it literally wreck the hearts of leaders on our team. It was an emotionally exhausting day... I know God has a plan and I've seen it working out time and time again in these families. Their faithfulness and obedience are incredible to watch and be a part of. But it's also frustrating to realize the lack of obedience of God's people is really where all this rests. Times are hard, but the bulk of our body is not living in poverty and the reality is if our entire congregation tithed at poverty level, our budget would go up.

As if that wasn't enough emotional factor in the week, my divorce was final on Thursday. Actually, we just had our hearing on Thursday and the docs will actually get signed by the judge today and mailed back to us. It was just bizarre; anti-climatic for sure. Go in - sign some papers - leave with "have a good day." 13 years of marrriage ended with "have a good day." Hmmmm....

New stage of life - here I come...

"What is your deepest fear?" Coach Carter

I love this quote from the movie, Coach Carter.

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our dark that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people don't feel insecure around you.We are all meant to shine as children do. Its not just in some of us; its in everyone. And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsiously give other people to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others. Sir I just wanna say thank you . . . You saved my life.
- said by Timo Cruz in Coach Carter