Fourth Photo

Saw this on Audrey's blog (who snagged it from someone else) and loved the idea. The rules are to go to your My Pictures folder, choose the 4th folder and then the 4th picture and tell the story behind it. Do this without checking first to see what the photo is - more fun that way!

Here's mine!
Santiago, Chile.
June 2, 2007
My fourth global connection trip to Chile with Central. This trip I co-lead with my first-time-trip sister, Vik. It was an interesting team, to say the least. It was my first trip with guys and gals - I had always been part of the amazing Chile Chicks that go over spring break. I had gone in March of '07, and returned in May/June of that same year.

Completely shocked by the weather change in those few weeks. March is usually toasty warm days with cool evenings and mornings. June was wet and freezing cold. We got off that plane and a bunch of us Arizona natives had no clue what we were in for. The first thing we sent our field worker for - long underwear!

This photo is from our immersion day in downtown Santiago. I love this country as it reminds me so much of Arizona - everything from snowy mountains to dry, barren desert land. The trees still had some of their fall leaves, but were beginning to get bare for winter. As we strolled through downtown, there was just a different ambience in the air than my other trips here.

Part of me wishes I was going again in March with my sister's team - but a bigger part of me is ready to move on to a more challenging trip and to break out of that Chilean comfort zone. I miss my chilean families, especially my little girl Cata.

Memory Lane


I have reconnected with a couple friends from high school via facebook. It's been fun to catch up with their lives. They were my best friends in elementary school and junior high and we shared some amazing times together. I stumbled across another friend that I haven't seen or talked to in about 15 years. She is now a teacher at our old high school. This school (I should actually say schools) was huge. We had two schools on one campus. Plymouth Canton and Plymouth Salem. I guess the population in rural Michigan has continued to grow, so instead of building another school elsewhere, you guessed it - they added a third school to the already chaotic 3-acre campus. The schools are now called Plymouth Canton Educational Park and house Salem, Canton and Plymouth high schools. Over 6,000 students attend this campus. Is anyone else thinking that is WAY too many teen drivers in one compact area?! That is putting tje buildings of Red Mountain, Mountain View and Mesa High all on one campus. Then factor in all those students. WOW! I found a photo of the new campuses and just can't imagine being a new student here. It was overwhelming when I went 20 years ago! You have classes at both (now three) schools - shuttling between the schools for classes.

In grade 10 I had swimming (mandated in michigan) for first hour at Salem, and science second hour at Canton. Scan this video (it's long and filmed 8 years after I graduated, but before the 3rd school was added. The quality is not great, but hopefully you'll get an idea). Now imagine making that walk in sub-zero temps with damp (or wet) hair. Pneumonia anyone?!



All in all I did love my high school experience here though. It was so hard to move in the middle of my junior year to Arizona - leaving behind the gigantic known and friends of 11 years or more, to a completely new culture at Horizon High school in Scottsdale.

Just a little trip down memory lane tonight.

New photos

Had a blast hanging with some wonderful friends and snapping some holiday photos for them. See them all here.

Enter the Story: Advent Conspiracy

Saw this on a friend's facebook and had to keep it as a reminder as well as share. Powerful stuff.


Trusting God

"In order to know God's will there must be a willingness to do it. Imagine a door in the path ahead of us. God's will is on the other side of that door. We crave to know what that is. Will God show us what's on the other side of that door? No. Why not? Because we have to resolve an issue on this side of the door first. If He is Lord, He has the right to determine what's on the other side of hte door. If we don't afford Him that right, then we are not acknowledging Him as Lord.

Why do we want to know what's on the other side of the door? Isn't it because we want to reserve the right to determine whether or not we will go through it? Some boldly walk halfway through, but keep their foot in the door just in case they don't like what they see and want to go back. It's going to be awfully hard to continue walking with God if your foot is stuck in the door. Jesus said, "No one putting his hand to the plow and looking back is fit for the Kingdom of God." (Luke 9:62)

One man probably spoke for many when he said, "I'm so used to running my own life. I'm not sure I even can or want to trust someone else. Besides, God would probably haul me off to some mission field I can't stand" What we need to realize is that if we did give our heart to the Lord, and God did call us to that mission field, by the time we got there we wouldn't want to be anywhere else.

Do you believe that the will of God is good, acceptable and perfect for you? That's the heart of the issue.
From Walking in the Light by Neil Anderson

James 4 was the reading this morning.

So many thoughts in the first ten verses! Motivation is a key component. What's my motivation? Not what I think it is - but my real motivation? I know what I want my motivation to be, but is that always my driving force? I want to serve God; want to be used by Him; want to love others the way He does. But the harsh reality is I am a very selfish person. I think about my time, my energy, my priorities, my schedule, my lists, my... The list can go on. But because Christ lives in me, and as I draw near to Him, the gentle (sometimes not so gentle) reminders about my motivations is a recurring theme. Aware that my human nature is selfish, but I've been given a new nature. Releasing my hold and control and replacing it with His. A daily (sometimes hourly) process of checks and balances - of noting who is in control, of who I serve, of who I follow.


There are always doors before us. Sometimes we choose not to move forward becuase the fear of the unknown is greater than the ability to follow Him anywhere. Sometimes we get a glimpse of what could be, so we peek through the windows - desiring what is behind the door, but never turning the knob. And sometimes, like the devo illustrates, we actually make it through the door, but keep one foot in our comfort zone, holding on to our own escape just in case. But those times we, those times I, really let go and move forward in simple faith that God has my best interests and His kingdom purpose in mind - what an amazing adventure to be a part of! What a privelege and honor to be used by Him.


There is such a freedom in His grace; in His will. When I'm not fully relying on Him I feel such a burden! So it's curious why I still struggle with letting go.

Persecution

Michael Yemba, a Christian from Sudan came and shared God's story in his life with us yesterday. I would love to sit and have coffee with this man and hear more. To hear of God's amazing provisions to those that face persecution in the truest sense. I would love to hear more about how God opened up the ceiling in his tiny prison cell to pour cool air on him when his body could take no more. I would love to hear about the journey God took him on to grow into the Christ-loving man he is today after his mother was brutally murdered by radicals in his country. I would just like to sit with this man (or others like him) to get my life into perspective.

Persecution (v): to pursue in a manner to injure, grieve, or afflict; to beset with cruelty or malignity; to harass; especially, to afflict, harass, punish, or put to death, for adherence to a particular religious creed or mode of worship.

Christ tells us to expect it; to welcome it even.
Matthew 5:11 "Blessed are you when people insult you, persecute you and falsely say all kinds of evil against you because of me."

The Message:
Not only that—count yourselves blessed every time people put you down or throw you out or speak lies about you to discredit me. What it means is that the truth is too close for comfort and they are uncomfortable. You can be glad when that happens—give a cheer, even!—for though they don't like it, I do! And all heaven applauds. And know that you are in good company. My prophets and witnesses have always gotten into this kind of trouble.

Note the ending in the NIV translation "because of me." And in the Message it says "to discredit me." I think this calls us to examine our persecution, or what we perceive as our persecution. In America, we currently don't have much of a clue about real persecution. We freely carry our Bibles, praise loudly in churches, "retreat" to the mountains for spriritual refreshment, visibly pray in public, blast our favorite worship songs on any number of Christian broadcasting stations, and shop churches to see which one best fits our style. We allow the minority agenda to steer our country's policies and laws, not speaking out for fear someone might not agree or get offended. We water down truth or hide it completely. We dwell on lifes bumps, missing the opportunity to participate in God's mountains. I know I'm guilty of that one. I get so self-centered - so focused on the woes in my own life at times that I miss what God's asking me to do; miss the opportunity and blessings of allowing Him to use me.

What are we to do with this knowledge of the depth of persecution that goes on in our world? What's the greatest thing that I believe I can do? Pray. Pray not only for those persecuted, but for the hearts and minds of those doing the persecuting. Pray for our Christian voices to speak out and draw attention to injustices of our world. We all have a responsibility to stand beside our brothers and sisters and to lift them before the only One that can sustain them through these expected times of persecution.

And for me, I need to continually examine my life to ensure I am living in a manner worthy of the gospel and worthy of persecution that comes as a blessing for following Him.

Thoughts on James

James 2:8-11
If you really keep the royal law found in Scripture, "Love your neighbor as yourself,"you are doing right. But if you show favoritism, you sin and are convicted by the law as lawbreakers. For whoever keeps the whole law and yet stumbles at just one point is guilty of breaking all of it. (NIV)

You do well when you complete the Royal Rule of the Scriptures: "Love others as you love yourself." But if you play up to these so-called important people, you go against the Rule and stand convicted by it. You can't pick and choose in these things, specializing in keeping one or two things in God's law and ignoring others. (The Message)

Been reading the book of James as part of my morning devotion time. If you show favoritism, you sin. Bam. How is that going on in my life, my workplace, or my church? Does it go on? Sadly, yes. The pursuit of relationships with our execs or elders based on their status and to the neglect of others instantly came to mind. People will spend hundreds of dollars to go on a fishing trip with our senior pastor, but won't give a couple of bucks when they go grocery shopping to help feed those in need. They'll spend time golfing on a trip where they might get to pass by an exec, but won't given an hour and serve with the children. What is it that people feel when they say "Oh I hung out with so-and-so last night?" I guess maybe I can relate to that feeling if I was telling someone I was hanging with Johnny Depp or Orlando Bloom, but in reality I have a feeling they'd still just be people. I appreciate and respect our senior pastor, executive pastors and elders so much. I think they have an amazing appointment by God and opportunity to lead and that they lead well. And there's several I do know and enjoy their personalities and senses of humor so much. But in the end, they are still people. People that have been blessed with certain opportunities to make an impact for Christ.

Favoritism has a power in some people's lives. Search my heart God, is it prevelant in mine?

The hearts of people are naturally selfish - I know mine is. It may not be in the same area of selfishness as some, but it is very selfish indeed. In what areas might I be showing favoritism? I've been on the receiving end of favoritism being lived out and experienced the hurt that comes from it. My dad played favorites. As kids, it ripped my relationship with my sister apart. Thankfully, as we grew older we saw it for what it really was—painful. A youth pastor that played favorites based on physical attributes. For the chunky, unusual, and awkward teen (aka me)- heartbreaking. Spiritually inadequate in others eyes because of my past choices and divorce—piercing. The list goes on, but the impact the same. It hurts to be part of the favoritism sin. God, show me where it's taking part in my life so that I might not be guilty of breaking Your Royal Law.

I don't have a ton of young childhood memories, but I remember a little boy coming in to my first grade class in a wheelchair. My heart went out to him and I became his keeper of sorts - pushing him around, making sure he had what he needed, etc. I'm sure parents and teachers stood by and sayd "Oh! Isn't that cute". But this morning I'm thinking isn't this the childlike innocence and love Christ speaks about and desires for us? One is not greater than another - we're all here to work together, love each other and help each other.

When I think of this royal law in visible terms I think of the ACTS outreach, those serving and reaching out in their communities and around the globe, Central's Buddy Expeditions, ministering to and serving those with AIDS. The list of how the Church lives this out this law goes on and on; and the list of how they break it is pretty long too. What about in our church body? Is favoritism prevelant? Do we have some work to do? What about in my own life? I pray for the wisdom to see when this sin invades my life and my heart and that I might closely follow Christ's example of always loving and serving those in need.

Elated

About to head out to do holiday portraits for some dear friends. The best part? I get to play with my new canon 50d! I finally broke down and bought it. A good sale + having the cash + having appointments for upcoming shoots = time to purchase. I can't wait to go play!


Now I'm wishing/praying/dreaming about a digital photography class through MCC that goes to Ireland for four weeks. Oh Brandy let's just go!!! Maybe this is why Japan didn't work out. Yeah - I wish!

I love the internet



Sometimes the internet is so fun. A friend posted some random questions today and one asked what was your favorite cartoon. I'll let you in on a little secret...I am a little strange. I was never a huge fan of cartoons. I watched them, but what drew me to the boob tube of my day? Johnny Sokko and His giant flying robot. Ultraman. Land of the Lost. Most people have never heard of Johnny Sokko, so I can't tell you how my heart just skipped a beat when I found this!!

The japanimation pokemon craze has nothing on the 70s giant flying robot!

If you get as hooked as I was, you can watch more episodes here too. Enjoy!

Shhh...don't tell

That I posted my one of favorite pictures of this disgustingly-photogenic couple here first (they get their cd tomorrow). We had SO much fun hanging on Mill taking engagement photos. I have to post one!!

Ok...maybe two :)

Stories of Emergence

I've been reading Stories of Emergence: Moving from Absolute to Authentic. A very interesting read. I've honestly not educated myself or read a lot about the emergent church or postmodernism. But I love reading stories about the Church doing new and different things to reach people that wouldn't typically be reached. Or stories about transformation. This book is full of short stories about exactly those things. Various authors share their stories about experiences with traditional church and unique places God led them. I am only 1/3 of the way through so far and am definitely looking forward to the rest.

Mike Yaconelli addresses the various movements that church has experienced over the last forty years. The Jesus movement, the Calvary Chapel movement, the megachurch movement, among others. His conclusion: "The longing beneath all these movements has always been the same—to find a place where people can worship God, learn abut Jesus, share their lives in authentic community."

I love my church home, but the building and its programs are just a tool God uses to touch people, to draw them in. Programs open doors; relationships are the real keys to people experiencing Christ. This book has been emphasizing and reminder me that we all need to be introducing people to God and not a church. Showing them the transforming power of Christ and what a relationship with Him looks like. How am I being used in this process of helping others find God, establish a relationship with Christ and have a safe place to be real and share that realness? I love my jr. high girls group and what God's showing me through that time and interactions with them. I love seeing God work in them and in me because of them. Love being a part of the story God continues to write.